As I write this blog tears flow down my face, and I ask myself the question I've been asking for the last 24 hours. The question of "why am I never good enough??"
My heart is broken and my feelings are raw and unknowing, and I find myself lost in the confusion of it all, fighting the urge to reach for the bottle. To simply num everything. To, shut, my, brain, off. I've been there before, slumped over sitting on a bar stool, a bottle of Jameson on the right, and a glass on my left.
Numbing the endless roller coaster of emotions, I was experiencing FOR- A- REASON.
But, this time I'm trying my damndest to stand tall.
Lifes a climb right?! (ya'll who read my last post totally know what I mean. If you haven't read it, go ahead, do it!)
We get to chose what makes us happy, and when we feel sad. And it's okay to tell those around you, because life can be a bitch.
The changes that have recently taken place in my life, have me thinking real hard on my next chapter. Where will I go? What's my purpose? I've got some ideas and despise the rough past couple days, I've got butterflies in my belly.
Proof that things really do happen for a reason. Crazy how that works right?
Maybe a silver lining?!
We'll see.
Until next time.
WHAT'S YOUR WILD?
A much needed SHOUT OUT to Cheyenne Carter. I'm so proud of you, you are the definition of growth! Thank you for being a constant inspiration to me. Let's adventure soon!
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